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I still don’t have a clear idea of
where I am going with this project but, I now wish to flag the fact that it is
not a clever and oh so subtle marketing ploy intended as a teaser for the next
Saint-Clair novel.
Hand
on heart, whether any raw *footage* born of this endeavor ever gets edited into
a book that I will ultimately publish or convert into a series of podcasts, I
have already decided that this document, as well as all subsequent files I
might write on all matters of the Soul, will remain publications all can access
as free downloads in their entirety – from the first capital letter of the
texts to the very last dots.
Since
I am not [yet] a philanthropist and would not want to pass for the altruist
that I am not - bad karma - I should perhaps explain why I am going to forge
ahead with such a project:
1.
The process of thinking out loud with
the aim of sharing, and therefore being understood by others, means that I have
to put a great deal of order and clarity to the many thoughts that are, for
now, colliding, whirring hard, sparking new synaptic connections inside my
brain, inside my neural net, inside my mind … inside my energy field.
- Not everyone reading this or
listening to the podcast will come in to these texts with as little
understanding as I had on
matters of spirituality.
Therefore
some of the more involved concepts and beliefs I will attempt to put forward in
Moriya’s pared-down style will strike a familiar chord in some, an
instantaneous spark of interest in others. And me, I get to give back to the
cosmos some of what it has brought to me through the teachings of Moriya who,
for reasons of detachment from all that is material, is not at all interested
in writing her own book. There is no point in Googling her – she is not there
:)
3.
Since Moriya has yet to accept from me anything
more than a few tiny tokens of thanks, indeed very few, how could I then
*sell* the fruit of the spiritual guidance I am receiving free when it is given
to me so unconditionally?
No
way, right?
Right!
But before anything, I need to flag that, although I have used the expression
*bad karma* in the paragraph above, it is seriously erroneous to think of karma
in that way. Karma is neither good nor bad. Like the sea around the swimmer, it
just is. More on that later.
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OK, so now that the groundwork has been
laid, let’s cut to the chase and start with the relatively easy bits - some of
the fundamentals I have come to understand and accept –
- I am the current incarnation of my
soul.
- My soul, like all souls, is
energy.
- Cosmic spiritual energy is pure.
It cannot become impure.
- When someone questions my
integrity or when I get deeply startled, I know my hand flies to the
center of my chest, not to my brain, not to the spot where I can feel my
heart beat.
So
rather than think my soul radiates or floats above my head like a halo or a
beacon, I accept that my soul-energy permeates the spot in the center of my
chest.
- My soul, like all souls, is
ancient. She has been incarnated many, many, many, many times over.
Personally, I have no interest in tracking down any of my past lives, as I
have plenty to work with figuring out this one, the only one that matters,
the only one I can maybe alter, one moment at a time, if and when I am
able to transfer the theory to the practice.
- The only thing my soul, any soul,
aspires to is to be taken offline – off the incarnation cycle.
- My soul cannot escape from the
incarnation cycle until I, C.C., and all my soul’s subsequent incarnations, have managed to edit
out all the *bad* karma i.e. the killer-waves, the dark troughs and chasms
as well as the energy-charged *I* moments, the *me 1st/mine 1st* moments -
in short the ego-centered moments when I am not present in the moment -
out of my energy field – the theory being that, as the universe is
perfectly harmonious, no soul can walk away leaving behind a mess of
unfinished business – karma not amended.
v
Guilt and prayers, remorse and
flagellations only amount to emotional crutches intended to make us feel
better, but fail.
Which
brings up the well-worn phrase Consumed
by guilt.
v
La Petite Chartreuse, directed by
Jean-Pierre Denis, a French film about a introverted man, an antiquarian, who
accidentally runs over an eight-year-old girl, offers a thoughtful illustration
of what amending karma can look like.
Indeed, the only way to karmically
right a wrong is to undo the wrong by
reversing the deed through personal involvement and from the heart. Not out of
a sense of duty. Karma can only be amended when we can repair directly with our victim - should we be so lucky as to still have her/him within
reach. There is no other way.
N.B.
I have decided to refer to my soul as *she* as I don’t think *it* would
be appropriate, not even a bold *It*, and I cannot possibly refer to MY soul as
*he*, not even if spelt with a capital H, even though I know all souls
are genderless - such are the limitations of language, but here is not the
place to be pedantic about language.
v
Just as a computer has a motherboard -
our brain, for its functioning, relies on a software program – so, too, does
our energy field in which our karma is encoded.
v
When I am in a *mood*, this mood in all of its vibrational
characteristics is encoded in my energy field.
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Karma is our personal, accumulated,
fateful load – our score sheet as inherited from our soul’s previous
incarnations, compounded by the karmic balance of what we have managed for
ourselves in THIS incarnation, this lifetime.
Put simply, since I am past middle age,
and since I show no signs of turning into a clone of mother Teresa or of
passing as a credible entrant in a Gandhi think-alike contest, it is safe to
assume that my soul has already been screwed out of any early plans of Nirvanic
retirement.
v
I, who never ever used to spare a
thought for my soul, have come to accept that we do not merely *get* a soul in
a random way. Instead, it can be said figuratively that a soul puts its little
hand up to accept us as the new vehicle through which she hopes to process some
of her karmic baggage. Souls pick us to be their upgraded vehicle to karmic
enlightenment - go figure! - which is why it is tacitly accepted that we ARE
able to overcome all and any of the karmic challenges that come our way - if
and only if we can tackle them in a spiritual manner which, of course, is not
the way our western culture has ever taught anyone to overcome anything.
v
It can be said that, like a net, our
energy field hardens around us, a little bit more with each passing
incarnation, making it each time more difficult for us to amend *the way we
are*. Which is probably why, by now, unless we get a very strong wake-up call - a sometime metaphoric, a sometime
literal, blow to the head - it is that much easier to go with the flow and keep
on *being ourselves*.
v
I have come to realize that the only
spiritually correct answer to “Who am I?” is I am my soul!
So, who is this person looking back in the mirror? The one with spiky gray hair who, every morning, gels up her hair and picks around till she find