I was an ardent seeker until I read "Right here right now" by John Wheeler and talked with Bob Adamson on the phone. Then I realized I didn't need to keep up the incessant seeking; I had 'found it' already and there was nothing to look for. I was a bit cross at first because it all didn't come up to my expectations! I had thought that everything would always be completely wonderful. I think this re-adjustment happens quite often after the understanding comes.