23 year old soldier in the us army currently deployed to iraq for the second time, i have had weird moments where i feel like i should be searching for something greater. It has pushed me into the ever constant search for something better! But it seems like my "ego" doesn't like this and tries anyway to make me avoid the search.... playing games, looking at stuff i cant afford, and the list goes on! I need to some help I try to meditate but I just dont get what I am doing!?