I did not grow up in a very nurturing environment, and through this I struggled quite a bit with self-worth into my adulthood. What I was good at I did really well, but all I had to do was make one mistake, and it did not matter how many things I did right all I did was dwell in the single mistake. I could not let go of it no matter how much someone would point out all the good. It just did not matter to me. As I grew older I knew I had to change these destructive repetitive cycles in my life. I knew in my heart I was much more than I gave myself credit for because I could see it when I was at work I would out perform everyone around me. I grew up with such a great deal of rage, hate, and anger. At the time I did not know how to let these behaviors go.