I have recently come into the world of "realization". It started with me finding that an end to the earth may be me "waking up" and not actually being ever existing. Upon further research I have found that indeed matter and everything I see, feel, and am is nothing more than an illusion. After much more research and looking back I feel that god truly is a part of every"thing" and that you see as things are shown to you through him. I came here in search of more answers and guidance.