Authentic Love

Hi! I'm Anne 35 yrs.old and still single, sindepent and a survivor I am the eldest in the family I had one brother and two sister in my father side and to my mother side one sister.I grow up without my guidance of my mom and dad .When I was young my granpa and grandma look after me and the brothers and sisters of my mom cos mom was working overseas.Tilll my grandpa and ma died I'm still staying in there ancestral house with mom brother and sisters. I don't have much happy childhood and always feel unlove when I was young they treat me badly sometimes at the early ages I learned all the house holds work.When I finished grades school I started working for myself cos mom never send me money back home and the communication is totally gone. I had a taugh life when I was on my secondary level I work hard to pay off my tuiton fee and like a ping pong ball to my aunties and uncle family favor.I really wanna finished my education to have a better life.After finishing high school I started to find my father.I was 18yrs.old when I meet my dad and I am very thankfull that his helping me to fullfill my dreams. I am very lucky cos I found a family my brother and sisters knows me cos ever since my stepmom knows about me and she always said to them that they have a big sister and its me.My greastest dream in life is to have a wonderfull family.And I always wondering why everytime I like or love someone always end up easily. I am very loving, caring and always give my best,I felt so bad most of the time cos in the end of the story I just found out they only want me as a sex object and it always makes me feel sad and its killing me.Can you please show me the way to find a a real or aauthentic love.Many thanks and all the best.